Dearest Daughter

Today you turned 14 mos and let me tell you how funny and smart you are...At 14mos you already understand a lot of words for your age. When mommy said "Oracion" (prayer in spanish) you would folds your arms ready for prayer! You would repeat simple words such as "Cabeza" (head in spanish) and at one time you would point to my nose and said "wat dat!". I would try to make you ask me the question again but you wouldn't, you only said what you want to said when you want to say it at your own time!

Well I forgot to mention that we have recently moved to a new house and area which is called Blacktown. We also now attending a new ward and I would take you with me to Sunday School and to Relief Society class but you would make lot of noises because you are always talking in your own language and people would be looking at us so I finally decided to take you to nursery class. You absolutely loves nursery class but you also would cry if I'm not there with you. So funny to watch you especially when this little boy keep trying to come and play with you but you tell him "AWAY!"

Anyways today on your B'day I took you to take a photo with Santa Clause and you were crying and poor Santa he looks so exhausted..lol. We bought the photos because your aunt Lili and I thought it was pretty funny.

I am so grateful for you especially now when I am still mourning for your little baby brother Angel you have helped me to ease the pain just with your beautiful smile and presence. I love you so much and you are mommy sunshine in this dark moment.


Ofa lahi atu
Con mucho amor

Manatu (your mommy)

Baby Angel

There's no words that can explain the pain of losing a baby. Two weeks ago Erick & I found out the good news that I was about 5 wks pregnant. Today I have miscarriage and we just came back from the hospital 2 hours ago. Erick and I both cried as the doctor told us that the baby is gone. We named him Baby Angel and we are going to dedicate our life to serve God from now on and hopefully one day we will see our little baby again. Erick has given me a blessing earlier that mention that the baby boy I'm carrying is very sick but everything will be okay according to our faith. I was hoping that somehow a miracle could happen and baby Angel would be okay but I guess Heavenly Father sees that he only needs to come and receive a body and return back to him. The miracle this baby has brought is for Erick and I to remember the Lord and to have faith in him. So now we decided that I don't need to go back to work anymore but to stay home and be a full time mom and also to have more babies!!! We also decided that from now on we will always going to remember this date, 13 December 2008 of our little Angel who is now watching over us. I hope you know that we love you so much and we are looking forward to see you one day.

Bad News

Words can't describe how heart broken I am to hear the bad news sobre mi hermano today from my sister Pesi.  All day long I was just sad and very disappointed over what had happened. It seems like a bad dream but I know it's not.  I just don't want to talk about it now but will write again in  a month time when hopefully thing get a little better and not too painful.

Count Your Blessing...

A single mother of two at her early thirty come to see me today at work as she's one of my clients and told me of her unfortunate story with tears falling down from her eyes. The poor lady has been married twice and both time failed. The first husband took their daughter to live with his parents at Turkey and won't let her see or talk to her after 6 yrs now. And her second husband now has remarried and now live just a block away from her! As I heard her story my heart cried out for her that tears start falling down from my eyes too! As a mother myself I could feel her pain and her frustration for not being able to see or hear from her daughter after all these years. Being a member of the church I know that Heavenly Father is mindful of her and what she's going through and this experience will only make her stronger and become a better person. It's true what they say that when you help someone elses burden it lighten up your burden. I mean after hearing my client's story I was reminded how blessed I am for having the gospel in my life, my family, friends, health, job and the list goes on.....

Rosario opening up her B'day presents

Seriously these photos posted are not even half of the photos & pressies Rosario received from her B'day party! Luckily Erick and I will be moving soon to a bigger house by the end of this month. The town house where we are living now its just too small and have no space for all of Rosario's toys!

A loving husband

(He adores me)


(My buddies at work)

I'm still sick with the flu but unfortunately I have to get up and go to work. I'm working for a company called Mission Australia as a Employment Consultant. It's a government job and we are based on helping people who receive benefit from centerlink (government) to find full time employment so that they can be off benefit. I have over a 100 clients which I have to help find works and it's not an easy job especially when half of them don't want to work and the other half are working cash in hands but don't want to declare so that they can keep receiving money from the government. You could imagine how tired I was after work at 5.30pm today and was only glad to be at home with my loving hubby and daughter.
Erick being a loving hubby let me take a nap while he took care of Rosario and at the same time cooks dinner (baked chicken, carrot rice and corn). Despite Erick imperfection he is very loving and understanding and he shows me that he loves me everyday. I am grateful and very lucky to have him as an eternal companion and I do love him with all my heart too.

Change of Heart

Delgado Family(General Conference) on a Sunday Morning

Sitting here on my bed in the middle of the hot night of November I could hear baby's primary songs softly playing on the background and also noises from the speeding traffic travelling outside. My heart is not at peace firstly because I'm still recovering from the flu but I know the main reason is because I have not been keeping the Sabbath Day holy. Today for example because I didn't go to church I've spent the day watching TV and getting my hubby Erick to buy me food from Red Rooster. Worst of all this is not the first time that it happened in fact is becoming a habit that our family on Sunday we always watched TV and eat out! Somewhere in my troubled heart I know that Heavenly Father still loves me and my little family. I will try to keep the Sabbath Day holy and will update it every Sunday as a goal to help me and my little family be on the right path.

Rosario 1st Birthday Party (17th October 2008)

Birthday invitation cards, thanks to Rosario's auntie, Pesi.

Pinata time...go Linda!

Kids receiving their lollies bag

Some of Rosario presents for her quest of honor that was prepared by her Nana Noa

Rosario and her two grandmothers doing the tao'olunga

Aunt Pesi and Grandma Noa getting the B'day girl ready for her tao'olunga

Rosario's aunties Melenaite, Maggie and Linda doing the tao'olunga

Rosario's 1st year of life movie by Daddy & Mommy presentation

Grandpa, Tuina putting money on baby for doing the tao'olunga

B'day cake, seat and some of the pressies

Rosario's cousin Marlon doing the karate

Uncle Sione having a rest after all the hard work while Timoti and Erick put on the final touch to the wall..What a transformation!!! Looking all nice and beautiful.....

Grandma Noa, Aunt Ellie and Uncle Brandon trying to put the drapes up

This is how the room looks like in the beginning...

Our little family

I'm lost for words and I still can't believe how hard and time consuming it was to prepare everything for our daughter's 1st B'day party. Trust me it was a learning experience for Erick and I as we strive to do our best for our daughter's 1st B'day party.

Here how it all started...Erick and I have set the budget for the B'day party to $2000. The B'day theme would be Princess. We wanted a beautiful b'day party for our daughter because we know one day she would look at those photos and see how much we love her by preparing a beautiful B'day party for her.

We were hoping to do her B'day party in a function room but now a days everything are so expensive. The function room normally cost over $1000 to book and on top of that for the quest we would have to pay $34-$40 p/head for food. So we decided to just do it at the RSL Club where the room is booked only for $150.00 and then our families would just help us decorate the room and for food (Buffet) it costs only $18.50 per adult and about $9.00 per kid (5-12yrs old) and kids under 5 would only $2.oo per age.

Having settle that then we try to figure out how to do her B'day invitation cards. I did one but my sister Pesi (the expert) who did my wedding invitation told me that the one I did is ugly and she will do a better one!:):):) I wasn't hurt by what she said but grateful and happy that she offers to help out and indeed the invitation she did was way way hundredth times better....

With the invitation cards out of the way, Erick went around to our friends and families houses and gave them the invitation cards. Our next task was perhaps the hardest was the hall. I took a day off work and went with my mom, Elenoa, lil sister, Lili and baby Rosario to Cabramatta where we bought almost all the staff needed to decorate the hall. Erick and I have already bought 5 of Disney Princesses Wall Papers from spotlight which cost $39 for one. All together our expenses for the hall which includes the tablecloths, lollies, lollies bag, baloons, B'day girl outfit, shoes etc were about 500!! And for the B'day cake alone it costs $350...So the rest of the money $1000 will be for the guests fees. Whew that was a lot of money but at the end it was all worth it. Everything are all ready now to decorate the hall for the B'day party.

On Friday night the 17th October, 2008 ( Rosario actually B'day date) after work around 9.30pm everyone (my family and Erick brother in law) was in the hall helping out in the decorations. The kids were having fun helping out and the B'day girl Rosario was there just running around and having a good time. The decorations didn't finish until 2.00am in the morning. Everyone was all exhausted and we quickly go home to rest for the B'day party that will start in a couple of hours.

So the actual B'day party took place on Saturday the 18th October, 2008 from 11.30am - 2.30pm. Most of the quests were families and only a few of Rosario's friends from church and also some of our friends from both church and work. Everything was going wonderful, my dad was the DJ playing mostly Tongan music..lol. My sister Pesi was the MC and my mom has prepared her own gifts to give away to Rosario quests of honors which were: Tia Roxy (Rosario's aunt), Tato (Rosario's grandma), Aunty Lesieli (Rosario's grandfather's sister), Grandpa Tuina.

On top of that the entertainments were beautiful. A tauolunga from Melenaite, Linda and Maggie (Rosario's aunties) and Toti and Charlie (Rosario's uncles) were the tulafale. And also Marlon (Rosario's cousin) was doing a karate show. And a 15 -20min movie of Rosario 1st year was presented that her father Erick & I put together for her as her birthday present from us. And for the kids we have "Pinata" with so many lollies bag for them to spoil themselves. :)

All our quests and families were having so much fun, the B'day girl was tired and exhausted that at one point she was sleeping then woke up playing, dancing and more crying...lol. She received so many presents, money and most importantly LOVE from everyone.

As I have said in the beginning everything was hard and time consuming but at the end Erick and I were happy. And we have learned that families are so important in our lives as they are the one who are there for us when we need help. Everyone has shows their love to our little family and we are grateful for them and we know that life without them will be nothing.

We truly hope that one day our daughter, Rosario will too realize how important family are and knows how much we love her and also her families who sacrifice so much to make her B'day a special day and also everyday of her life.

We love you and Happy Birthday to You Rosario Selena Delgado our little Princess.....

Labour Day (Monday 6th October 2008)

Usually I hate monday because I have to go back to work after a nice weekend with my family but today was different because it was a holiday (labour day). My hubby and I already have plans for today which are going swimming at the pool and also go out to watch a movie (Gold Class) and leave baby with her grandma (Noa).

This morning was raining but then around 2:00 in the afternoon it was not raining anymore so off we went to Fairfield Swimming pool. It's the first time for me and baby Rosario to go swimming together. Her first time swimming was with her grandmother! Baby loves swimming and she loves hitting the water and making a splash! She giggles and both of us have so much fun. Erick was just watching us swimming and taking lots of photos he wasn't in a mood to swim but it seems he's just happy watching baby & I having a blast.

We went from the swimming pool to my parents house and leave her with my family. They were all happy to see baby Rosario they all love her so much. My hubby and I went to Parramatta Cinema in to Gold Class which is now our third time. We watched "Eagle Eye" starring Shylla (From Transformer & Disturbia) which is not bad at all but our favorite so far is "Taken" starring Liam Nelson. My hubby and I had a good time being together and enjoying the ideas of us going out on a date. I guess part of the reasons why its because when we used to date he usually comes and see me at my house because my parents were kind of strict and would not let us be on our own! Its not because that they were bad parents its just because they love me so much and don't want anything bad happen to me. Now that I'm married and have a daughter I totally understand where they were coming from and hopefully I would be a better mother to my daughter too.

I love my daughter so much and the one desire that I have for her is to be happy and to enjoy all the blessings her Heavenly Father has in store for her.

Rosario @11mos

She has 4 tooths only and she's a suk..lol

She uses her shoes as a phone..lol. She's saying HOLA!

Dear Daughter


Here I am looking at you and I still could not believe how much you've grown up. You are now 11 mos old and already you are walking and talking to yourself in your own language...lol! You took your first step when you were 10mos old and ever since then grandpa has been taking you out for a walk almost everyday and now walking is just a piece of cake to you! Not only that but you are just a clever little baby. You know how to say "tata" (bye) and "pasipasi" (clap hands) when you were just abt 8mos and when you were just 9mos old you know how to stick out your tongue if I said "te'elelo". Now at 11mos you could touch your head when I said "Cabeza" (head) and you pointed to your mouth when I said "Boca". You also could understand when I said" Ha'u" (come). But the funniest thing is how out of the blue you become a little copy cat. When grandpa or grandma coughed and hold their mouths you do the same thing too...Its just hilarious! You also love to talk on the phone and already you could say " hello" and sometimes you would say "hola!" It's amazed me to see how much you've grown and how much you've learned so far.


It's now two more weeks before you turn one and mommy and daddy are still preparing a party for you. We were thinking of making the theme as Wizard of Oz because that is your #1 favorite movie. You could just sit there and watch the whole movie all by yourself but mommy always have to turn it off because she does not want you to be addicted to TV! Talking about it reminded me how when you were only 9mos you used to turn off the TV and back and sometimes annoyed mommy and daddy that they have to block the TV so you could not reach it! Anyways your birthday party should be a fun and special day for you and we will take lot of photos for you to see when you are older.


It has been so much fun watching you growing and spending time with you. I wish I didn't have to go back to work full time but your daddy and I want to give you a better life and future. It was the hardiest decision ever that I have to make in my life. I remember dreading the day when it get closer for me to go back to work after my 1 year maternity leave. But you made it easier for mommy because you were happy with grandma Noa and grandpa Tuina who look after you while I'm at work.


I love you my baby and I hope when you read this letter in the years to come you would learn more about yourself and also know that your parents love you with all their heart.


Con mucho amor
Ofa atu


Manatu
Your mommy